Sweet Mackenzie

Sweet Mackenzie

  with elegance and grace she speaks of the disgrace the loss of “who I am” the masks of who we’ve been with truth and honesty she plants the seed of purity the spark that leads to flame no longer carrying the shame she cares not how long it took she is, as always, an open book since 18, working hard to free “something devastatingly wrong with me”   nothing Ritalin, coke or drugs could cure to carry on – wanting something sure needing others to say she’s OK, a church without a steeple finding out … hurt people hurt people a missing father figure in a physical form untreated narcissism, substance abuse – a perfect storm they were mad at her for telling what he did protecting the perpetrator, keeping it all hid a victim silenced, don’t say anything high on arrival … becomes hopeful healing the realization she is her mother’s daughter, no less she need not identify with the ugly and the darkness she could choose who she is to be finding the identity of the one … “it’s me” no longer desperate to be believed not needing someone to be furious at … now relieved forgiveness isn’t about cosigning, nor about not being pissed it’s reclaiming the you that you’ve dearly missed   with joy, light, elegance and grace she speaks of a past disgrace the retrieval of “who I really am” the release of what has never been the spark that ignites the highest flame no one will ever be the same it matters not how long it takes the book and the door...
Keeping the Peace for the Peace Keepers

Keeping the Peace for the Peace Keepers

[Support this campaign HERE.]   To help ease the post-traumatic stress that may haunt local police officers’ dreams and waking life, Lemon Grove resident and filmmaker James Anthony Ellis has taken on a project to document some of those traumatic triggers as well offer pathways of support. A 30-minute educational film – titled “Keeping the Peace” – will be gifted to police agencies across San Diego and then the nation for in-house training of officers. The purpose? To bring awareness to the stresses and traumas experienced by officers and law enforcement personnel while on duty in order to empower them to normalize their emotional and mental responses to on-the-job experiences and to take action in alleviating, diffusing and treating the symptoms of trauma (PTSD), so that they can retain wellness in all areas of their lives. Today’s stats can be grim: According to Officer.com, there are an estimated 150,000 officers who have symptoms of Post Traumatice Stress Injuries (PTSI). Recent research indicates that 1/3 of active-duty and retired officers suffer from post-traumatic stress, with some unaware of this condition. Badge of Life Organization states law enforcement officers are 1.5 times more likely to commit suicide than the general population. With over 100 suicides per year – the #1 one killer of police officers is … law enforcement suicide. According to researcher and therapist Beverly J. Anderson: “More than any other occupation, law enforcement is an emotionally and physically dangerous job. Police officers continuously face the effects of murder, violence, rape, child abuse, accidents and disasters. Long hours, rotating shifts and constant exposure to tragedy exacts a heavy toll on...
Workshop

Workshop

SPECIAL EVENT A GRATEFUL BREATH A Thanksgiving Gathering For The Open Heart $45 – Regular price $35 – Special price for two when you bring a friend. REGISTER HERE Options Individual $75.00 USDFor 2, Bring a Friend $100.00 USD Or E-mail for information: JimEllis1103@Yahoo.com EVERYONE MUST RSVP TO ATTEND Come take a breather in one of the most powerful modalities of healing ever given to humankind. What’s below the masks we wear to hide ourselves from others? What is underneath the fear that imagines the worst? What is beyond the painful past? Us! Taking a cue from upcoming Halloween, come discover our original face under the masks we pretend is our identity. Meet yourself at the depths: The True Self, The Pure Mind, illumined, free, expressing and seeing only truth and love. All in our kick-off session with an EXPANDED time-frame in a NEW large space. Plenty of breathing room!   Following a successful special event “A Deeper Breath” in October, the space is now clear for a special November session dedicated to Thanksgiving and gratitude. With the stresses of the holidays approaching, with potential triggers around the family dinner table, it’s important to be as clear and centered as possible. Come join in community of like-minded hearts, to anchor in your truest, purest self.   DATE Sunday, November 19, 2017 1:30 to 3:30 p.m. LOCATION Om Center for Spiritual Living 7951 University Ave, La Mesa, CA 91942 It’s important everyone attending knows to RSVP through JimEllis1103@Yahoo.com, so we have a headcount and can best plan for this special event.     HEALING EXPLAINED “Breathwork” – a modern healing technique...

Chapter 22 – Consequence vs Punishment – Apology vs Accountability

CHAPTER 22 CONSEQUENCE VS. PUNISHMENT – APOLOGY VS. ACCOUNTABILITY This chapter explores those moments after your word is broken or you’ve had a break with some form of integrity. So… what follows? You can hide in the bushes or under a freeway. You can come clean, and admit the truth to someone and then walk away. You can apologize. You can be punished. You can give back to those you impacted in some form that is natural, acceptable and admirable, revealing the awareness that there is a “consequence” to every action. You can wait for the Lords of Karma to deal out your karmic retribution later on, perhaps in the next lifetime. Although we will cover much of these territories, I think it’s vital that we get something straight right away: the act of punishment is complete bullshit. Not that much of our society would agree. Parents, plaintiffs, judges, lawyers and other court jesters, as well as those betrayed in the realm of relationships would not take kindly to a world without punishment. “Hang `em, lock `em up, give me their money. They don’t deserve anything else.” Such a punishing mentality does much to serve the side of the “plaintiff” or those who feel they have been wronged. But what about serving the defendants or those out of honor? How would one in our society take care of these folks, who – last we checked – most likely are still human beings with the same needs, desires and foibles as any of us? With punishment, we can close the books, label the criminal, burglar, murderer, asshole as we wish,...

Chapter 23 – “What Can I Do To Make It Up To You?”

CHAPTER23 BALANCING GIVE AND TAKE “WHAT CAN I DO TO MAKE IT UP TO YOU?” As we discovered in a previous chapter, coming into honor is coming back into balance – with others, with black and white standards of conduct. It can be a natural and effortless endeavor filled with grace, respect and care for others in our lives. As we also discovered, it can also be a bitch. Literally. Many a man can make the process quite the ordeal if they: Take a stance of irresponsibility Forgo humility for ego and arrogance Need to be right rather than righteous Hide or avoid situations in which they played a major part Redirect attention away from themselves and their own actions Basically act like a little bitch. Literally. You set something in motion with your commitment or your word, and it must resolve somehow; there must be a completion. You shook hands. You wrote something in the e-mail. You said it out loud to another, whether you were listening to yourself or not. The questions are: Did you follow through on your word, agreement, handshake? If not, what are you going to do about it? In the old days – way, way back in the ancient times like the mid-1950s – there was this saying: “What can I do to make it up to you?” That phrase – rarely heard in today’s “no responsibility” generation – holds a lot of power in it. It includes responsibility, ownership and the desire to “give back” to a situation that may have been impacted by one’s misguided action or unconscious lack of action....